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Monday, March 25, 2013

FAKE LIFE.....

"Life will only love you as much 
as you love yourself." -Bindu 
Believe it or not............this is my daily wish for so many people that I clearly see pretending on Facebook.  I never liked that saying, "FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT".  What for???  That will only destroy your soul from within.  Your life is about living your truth so you can restore balance and be whole.  

My life is not at all perfect but my life has had many beyond perfect moments that filled me up with tremendous joy and love.  My highs are through the roof and out of this world and my lows feel like daggers that are constantly piercing through my heart when it's heavy.  If you follow my writings then you know that I like to feel all the way. 


Getting into my emotions is the gateway to understanding my feelings about the things that I am going through or that has happened to me in life.  I absolutely cannot figure out what's going on or uncover my truth by pretending. 


If it's pain I'm feeling then let me bleed truth so I can learn my life lessons.  If it breaks me down then I will build myself right back up, wiser and a stronger force like never before.  


My love is a toxic high that creates a beautiful bliss in my life so I have no doubt that life will never keep me down.  Do I stumble? YES!  Do I fall?  All the time!  But I'm a beautiful force willing to shine knowing this life is mine to win.  I'm far too focused on my personal and spiritual growth so I don't have time to waste by pretending on or off Facebook.  Nobody should!


If I'm not happy, I'm not raising glasses and making toasts to the good life knowing I'm unhappy.  I need to get my life in order first!  If I'm not happy, I need to get to the bottom of things and find my joy.  I need to deal with my problems head on.  You can't place a mask over what you don't want to deal with because your problems will only show up bigger and even worse than before.   Trust and believe that some way or some how your problems will find a way to expose itself in your life.


My life is about me, not anybody else so that means I have to be right within my soul all of the time.  When my friends ask me what's wrong, I tell them straight up!  When my family ask if I'm okay, I say "hell no I'm not okay"!  
If I don't feel right, I will just shut down completely, mind, body, heart, spirit and soul. 


My soul won't allow me to act as if my life is awesome when I know it is not. My life has to be right and I'm willing to do the work it takes to get it right! For me that means CHANGE MUST TAKE PLACE which means it's time for me to be the game changer in my life.  


This is why I can't understand why anybody would pour their precious time and energy into pretending that they are living a happy life on twitter, Instagram or Facebook.  I don't even want pieces of a happy life.  Nope!  I want the whole damn thing!!! Either you are truly happy or you're not happy.  It's that simple.  I'm not half assing on my happiness for Facebook or nobody because I know I deserve joy.  


I earned it in life so give me mine.  You're not fooling anybody and you can try to lie to the world but I know your mind, spirit, heart and soul is restless as you struggle with masking your truth.  Life will only love you as much as you love yourself.  


When you surround yourself with genuine people who are truly for you, Facebook and the world won't mean a thing.  Get your life right so your Facebook life can match your REAL life!  Your soul is waiting for you to keep it real with yourself.  *TRUTH*

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